Tuesday, October 14, 2008

This is awful :(

This has absolutely nothing to do with midwifery, but I am feeling awful.

I have really bad tinnitis in my left ear. I found out almost a year ago that I have scarring on that ear drum as well. I went in to see an ENT due to vertigo ( I know, all at once, huh? ), and they gave me that news.

The ringing in my ears has progressively been getting worse, to the point where I often cannot go to sleep at night because of the seriously high pitched sound in my ear. Well lately, it's been accompanied by a cold feeling, or like a portion of my ear has gone to sleep. On Sunday I woke up and was a bit dizzy and my head just ached. I tried to shake it off, because I was going to surprise the girls with Disneyland for the day. I ate, took some extra strength tylenol, and prayed it would go away. It didn't. As we waded through the horrible crowds at Disneyland, the dizziness and headache got worse. We had to leave early, otherwise I didn't think I'd be able to drive home.

Yesterday any noise the kids made was absolutely unbearable. Each squeak felt like someone was jabbing an ice pick into my head. I now have a very congested feeling along with pain running down the left side of my neck, and little noises are still driving me crazy. I went to bed as soon as Jeramy got home last night, but even with drops and a cotton ball in my ear, my hooded sweatshirt over my ear, the blanket over that, and my door closed...the noise still hurt very much. :(

I had made an appointment with an ENT that Jeramy has seen, for Thursday afternoon. I woke up this morning to it being even worse, and was able to switch my appointment to a stand-by one this afternoon at 3:30. I was warned that I will have to wait quite a while, but I don't care at this point. I just need to know what's going on, and get some relief. I was horrible to the kids yesterday because of the pain, and the intense pain that came with noise by them. I can't keep going like this. :(

So anyway, pray that the ENT finds what's wrong, and is able to offer me some relief. You all know how I feel about drugs - but boy I wouldn't mind some good ones right about now!


Gombojav Tribe said...

Oh that's yucky! Hope you get some answers today!

Yesterday during our morning family worship I asked the kids what God was saying. Caesar said, "God says, Be healed!"

So, that's for you, too! Be healed in the name of Jesus!


Amber said...

Oh my goodness...are you still getting adjusted regularly? That is always the best relief for my ears...not thats it been that bad but the frozen east coast always causes my ears pain and it helps almost isnstantly...also, I am certain acupuncture could help...Dr Yu...I swear by the woman!!!

Yara said...

Oh sweetie! That is awful... I'm so sorry
I agree with what Daja said
be healed in the name of Jesus!

Emily said...

Wow, that sounds an awful lot like Meniere's disease. I used to tutor a woman who had that, and on bad days she seemed the same way you describe. You should check it out.